a grave

Autism Anthem:
I wish to make you smile
as i myself have grown quite scared
spending all the while alone within my house quite
unaware
and fears can come and go but
i think i feel that i am free
and living is a sin but start the next day
in ecstasy

because the love you kept me in
is never broken far from me
fears may poke there heads
but i clean up the mess
come collect me in a hearse
and finish this verse
and make some sense of what conflict of self is


and if the letters then  grow sparse
and a stone is all you ever hear from me
know i don't want to die alone
where love is just a thought to people such as me
but please guide me in a direction somewhere
a place of love where my mother smothers me with kisses
whilst me and dad do the dishes and anger is an exception for a family
just know that the closer you are to my heart
the more you are in Shakespeare street


poem #2 (untitled)


because if there's one thing even dearer then your heart it's your head
and the emotion you've kept from someone instead
of letting it come back to love light shining bright
lust that's fled from the hearts precipice to be redesigned


know no one heart more than mines intent and  ready
to leap and depart onto your lilypad leaving  emotions unsteady
but we know what we feel cause we can make it that
unconceivable notion we may be unready yet we depart
to leave the sunlight to be felt by blindness


and making up my mind is a kindness
unto me
and water is a sense to be drowned
by perception
but ill just see you around
another day is another day to be me
without exception